#1 "The Good in Humanity": The Holiday Feeling

Beware: Below is an introduction that barely had anything to do with the main topic but I thought it was sort of good, so I didn't delete it. 

[There's something about the world... The way it can give you the most terrible, painful, and broken hearted feelings; yet it is still the most beautiful and heart warming sight you have ever seen. 

After a hard day, after everyone gives you one hell of a bad time, after you say you hate your life and everyone in it- someone or something brings that smile to your face. It gives you hope and you remember all the reasons why you still love this planet and all it's tainted glory. I guess the universe loves irony. ]

I know it's been a while since the last blog post but I've been looking for inspiration and my passion. I thought I placed it on my bed two months ago but I guess I'm just using that as an excuse. I'm sorry for my laziness, my family complains about it too. Actually, to be more honest with you, the entire month of November I've been saying that I had to write today, but today turns out to be three days before Christmas Eve... Oops. Anyways, I'm not here to give you all the crap about what high school is like, or how dumb the world may seem. I'm taking a different stance on the world today since it is the holidays.

What is it about Christmas that turns any bitter soul into a jolly spirit? Is there something in the air, is it that brisk wind or that smell of freshly cut pine trees? Maybe the twinkling led lights reflecting upon the pure white snow? There's something about this time of the year that gets anybody excited.

Christmas is my favorite holiday, there's nothing like being together with family and not trying to yell at each other. Now mind you, I've had quite a few hauntingly terrible Christmas memories, (Like getting yelled at by my uncle who screamed through the microphone while I tried to help him quiet the room... But boy, did my embarrassment really make the entire family shut up...) but nothing ever seems to soil the greatness of Christmas. 

It is the time of giving and the time of joy. It's about celebrating what has been and preparing for what will be. We come together at the end of the year to tell each other how much we love and care for each other when the rest of the year we were all too busy to remember all the great things in our lives. The holiday is about being happy and together and that's why Christmas never seizes to amaze me, it turns any hum bug person into someone lights up when they realize that someone cared enough to get them a gift. It would be a great time to add 'yolo' but it's so stupidly overdone that we might as well stay intelligent so, carpe diem and seize the day.

I've got to say I'm sorry for my weird introduction and to my three paragraphs about Christmas that barely count as paragraphs. But it's the holidays and I think you get the point in these terribly transitioned pieces: The world may seem bad, but you've got to remember what makes it worth being there for. Whether it's another Christmas, or the next summer, or one more hug and laugh; there is always something waiting for you and there is always someone that relies on you just as much as you rely on them, so don't disappoint. Today, instead of being in my usual pessimistic nature that I must say, is abnormally common for those my age, I choose to look at the Christmas lights outside my window and they will spark my excitement for the next year and give me those warm, tingly feels of nostalgia that I loves. I choose to be happy this holiday, and to look on the bright side. This holiday, do the same as me and remember those who you are grateful for and show them that you are. 

Also if you are being extra generous this holiday, check out my previous angry rants about life if you dare, or you can check out my blog in the upcoming year and see how much I've changed (Probably not that much). Anyways, thank you so much for reading through all this none sense and I wish you an extremely happy holidays and an adventuresome next year.

My Not So "Inspirational" Speech

How it All Began:

At school there's an event where you can write an inspirational speech and you record yourself speaking. If the school board chooses you then you get to speak in front of everyone in the school district. I thought of the idea, and I was all hyped up for it, until I realized 2 things: One, I'd probably pee my pants on stage if I had to speak in front of a crowd of people. And two, I am not inspirational. Well, not yet at least.
Anyways, on Monday after a geometry quiz I had about 20 minutes left in class so I decided to try and write something of a speech, but it didn't turn out as inspirational as I had hoped for but it was more of me questioning the authenticity of people.

The Speech I Wrote in 20 Minutes:

"The truth is I cant write an inspirational speech when I haven't done anything that would inspire anyone. I'm still in high school trying to figure out the rest of my life, that hasn't even begun yet. I like to be honest and true to what I say. If you wanted an inspirational speech, it'll only be a "Copy & Paste" collage of used up motivational quotes and myself trying to make sense of it. But that isn't me, I'm no copy cat. Originality, honesty, and creativity are what matters to me; to be an individual over a carbon copy of everybody else.

When I started at a new middle school, I wanted to fit in so I thought if I acted tough and cool, that I'd actually be cool. But I wasn't cool and it was terrible. I had the hardest time connecting with people and making new friends [and it is still pretty noticeable even to today]. It was because I acted like- and excuse my language- A snobby 6th grade bitch. But by the end of that year, I took a step forward to figuring out the rest of who I was. It wasn't easy but I broke out of my repetitive ideas and changed. I wasted a year being an arrogant person and it felt so wrong. I realized that I was better at being who I should be instead of who I'm not. And It really made all the difference the next year. I know now that I don't want to be a popular person, or the A+ student, or a normal, blending in the background kid- I want to be the weird, geeky me, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Some may not agree, but it all depends on what's important to you. At least I know I'm honest to myself, but the question of the matter is: Are you who you really are, or are you just pretending to be?"

  The Over-Analysis On My Own Speech:

As I typed it all out, I won't lie, I tweaked it a bit. It wasn't that terrible, right? I had no transition from one topic to another, but I guess it's okay since they are relevant to each other. At least the speech gave it's point, which was being an individual and being yourself, which is what I wanted.
Conclusion: Let's just say that I need to work on writing something inspirational other wise my presidential speech will suck like hell. I'm just kidding, I'm too liberal to be the president.

So if you read through and actually enjoyed it then I thank you for taking time out of your life to read what I had to say. It was really kind of you to do that. If you wanted to keep the kind acts going, maybe you can share it among your colleagues and friends, and even keep coming back to check out more of my blog. Once again I thank you so very much and I hope you a have a supercalifragilisticexpialidocious kind of a day or sweet dreams if you read this at night.

 

#1 "The Problems in High School are..."

Slow Walkers & Ignorant People Might Be The Death of Me

There are two things that irritate me in life, okay I'm lying because there's a crap ton of irritable things in the world, but these two specific things that have to do with school. Or at least, what I have to deal with in and around class periods. The sad thing about this is that i'm not complain about my classes or teachers, but the people that I have to go to school with that I don't even know nor do I want to know if they act like this:

1) The Slow Walkers and Their Herd

No, we are not talking about The Walking Dead, that's a different topic, I am talking about actual living people who basically could count as zombies if you wanted to go in further. As the meticulous person I am in school, I like to get to class on time. I know it's not only me, but I feel like I live in the minority of those who know how to walk as fast as they talk. Almost everyone walks with three or four friends all standing together to fill the width of the hallway. They are texting on their phones as they talk to another person right next to them, this literally slows the majority down. All I want, is to get to class without dodging through a maze of people. 

Anyways, lets talk about herds. These are not cows, nor are they a large group of walkers. We are talking about a group of kids who are inseparable. They, in my opinion are not as worse as slow walkers, but are still a big nuisance in the hallway because they too take up more than half of the space (Of course the other half who are slow walkers). They crowd around a locker and don't notice you until you say it loud enough for the rest of them to hear, "Excuse me, I'm trying to get through here!" Which is difficult for me since i'm pretty shy around people my own age.

Here's a tip for walking in school and in the general public that could save your life:

• A year ago I made A plan called "The 2 by 2". This is how it works, if you have five friends, you pair up and walk next to that person. Who ever is left has either choice to walk and lead (which is what I prefer) or in the back like the sad fifth wheel (no offense to the fifth wheels out there, I've been there too). This works because it doesn't take up all the space and it's orderly. "The 2 by 2" plan works beautifully if only my friends would remember to this.
• All I can conclude for #1 is if your walking determines how you drive in life, then a lot of people cannot drive in this world. I mean come on people it isn't that hard, stick to your lane and drive at the right speed limit. Also, no texting while driving, don't be stupid.

2) Ignorance is Bliss?

The definition of ignorance is the lack of knowledge or information. This applies to many things but for my purpose, it will be used to prove a point. We go to school to learn, yet with some people it doesn't seem to get through their heads. For me being raised by traditional Asian parents, I rebelled over that idea until I realized how dumb people can be. During my freshman year, I was shocked to see many people who  claim to be mature, didn't care about what was going on in the world. They only cared about what was going own in their mediocre lives, like the person they've been crushing on or who'll they bring for homecoming. This to me is not important and I've come to peace with those who care about those silly things. For me, I'm worried about what I'm going to do after high school and after college, what do I want to spend the rest of my life doing, never have I worried about getting a date.
Anyways, this hadn't pissed me off until I heard a girl yell to her friend in the hall way that she didn't care about problem in Syria. And at that point I turned to my friend and said with anger, "Ignorance is bliss." and then in return she replies with one of the quotes I told her weeks before this which was, "Eliminate the unnecessary." That being said, whoever that girl was, crapped on my whole day. It pissed me off that she yelled it out loud enough for the world to hear. By saying that, it's like she meant she didn't care about the people who were murdered by those gas attacks. It shouldn't have pissed me off as much as it did, but when she said those words I took it upon myself to think that whoever that sorry girl was, she didn't care about human life. I couldn't do anything but only mentally bang my head against the locker and lose faith in the world. I got over it though, with a little though that had big meaning: "You can't change the people, but you can change the world." Yeah, I know it's very corny, but it was a much more optimistic mindset than my usual pessimistic self.

So, if you actually read this entire thing, I thank you kindly. If you liked it and agreed than I feel better knowing I'm not alone on these little problems. This is literally my first blog ever and I have no idea what to do with it so I might as well give you my opinion, right? I got to thank you again to the only four people probably reading this. I really hope you actually enjoyed it and will come back to read and maybe even share my future posts. Oh, and sorry for any grammar mistakes, I was rushing at the end of my editing process.


Here's a screenshot of this blog on a phone for random reasons... Carry on, nothing strange here.